Trying to find MY way to happiness

[ValerieA]

Hi, Kim.

... But, he really has no right talking to you the way he did over the phone...

When H dropped the kids off last night, I did tell him that I didn't feel I deserved to be talked to that way, and I told him he didn't have the right to do it. H said, "You're right. I don't, and I'm sorry."

So... here I am on a Saturday night wanting to try to make you feel a bit better about yourself.

Thank you very much, Kim, for doing just that although I am sorry you weren't out having some real fun . And thank you for sharing your notes. I wrote them down and they are taped to my bathroom mirror.

How would you feel if you knew FOR SURE that in 2 years your life would be filled with love and you would be happy again?

Does it really have to be 2 years?

I would feel like I was on cloud nine, and I would feel so alive. I wouldn't have a thing to worry about.

Hmmm....are you telling me this is how I need to start feeling? Well....I know I do. I have to try to get out more like I did the other night. It's hard and the chance doesn't come up very often, but I do when I can.

Try to remember what I once told you... Your H is just being your H... He is probably doing what he has ALWAYS done... As far as being late to pick up the kids or dropping them off to you... You CAN NOT control if he is going to be late... But, you CAN control how YOU respond to him.

Yes, H is who he is and has always been that way, and right, I cannot control him. I can only control myself.

Well, if anything, there was one small positive that came from yesterday's setback. H called at about 8:15pm and said S5 wanted a snack, so H was calling to let me know he was fixing him something to eat and would have them back at 9pm. I said ok and thanked him for calling to let me know, and they were back on time.

Thanks again, Kim.

JV

"I can't change the direction of the wind, but I can adjust my sails to always reach my destination."