I just talked to my mother and asked if they would watch the baby tomorrow so the boys and I could go to the beach with H. She said they would, but she also let me have it .
My mother said I should stop settling for the crumbs that H is dropping me. She said, "He wants in, he wants out. Back and forth everytime. He wants to be home because of the boys, but he doesn't want to be home and be married and have all the responsibilities that come with it.....You deserve to be happy, JV. You deserve a whole lot more than just a crumb here and there. He told you he wanted to leave, so he finally did after you told him to go ahead and do it. Then he sparks that little glimmer of hope right in your face again, and he's got you just like that......He wants some kind of freedom to go and do what he wants, but you're expected to be at the house because that's what he wants?!......He doesn't know what it's like to REALLY be without you guys, mi hija. Sure, he's gone for a week or two weeks here and there, but he knows you're home waiting on him. Now he's out of the house, and he STILL wants to have you with him for his own comfort and convenience! YOU DESERVE MORE THAN THIS, JV! You have to stop acting like you don't!.....I know you want to be with your H. I really do, but you have to give yourself a chance to be happy. You deserve it, and the boys deserve it, too. Stop opening and shutting the door in this R. He's out -- now let him know what that really means. Because he's NEVER going to know it if you keep settling for the crumbs."
Is my mom right???? I feel that she is.
I'm going to go to my sister's tomorrow. I just have to.
JV
"I can't change the direction of the wind, but I can adjust my sails to always reach my destination."
Valerie
"I can't change the direction of the wind, but I can adjust my sails to always reach my destination." ~ author unknown
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