oh, dang, I am so nutsed out. I've had several emails from H today, and in none of them did he say ILY...not once. I said it to him in a couple of replies. I guess I shouldnt say it even in email these days. you see, I just can not shake the bad feeling that things are going to fire up again. I don't know...it's hard to explain. oh yeah, maybe not, he asked me this morning about where things were with getting him a new cell phone. evidently he dropped his, and he says it only works for the most part one-way...can't remember which. but I can't help but worry because I know he used to spend HOURs with monster on the phone. plus no ILY's in emails. He asked me to get him some athelete's foot lotion today, and said "thanks for taking care of me", but no ily's...also sometime since we got home he made the comment that with monster he found a romantic side of himself that he didnt know he had and he liked and he feels it slipping away with me. that has been in the back of my mind and I keep forgetting to post that here. plus we've only ml 1X in the week today we'ver been home
I dont' know what to think, he is blowing hot and cold again.....last night seemed much better, then today I don't know, although he did say he's really busy, but still it takes less time to type ILY than that he's really busy.
I did read in an old old Conway book, "your Marriage can survive midlife crisis" that improvement comes in the form of a jagged up and down line that shows gradual upward movement, not steady upward movement...and I believe DR says that as well...
I guess probably reading Rotz's thread just now kind of reinforces my fears. sheeeesh. sometimes I think it would be easier to run screaming off into the sunset. Or crawl into a cave.
