I'm having a surprisingly tough day today. I've been out of the office and not had much in the way of email from H, and last night was not good for us....
he came home in a bad mood, and we actually somehow got into an argument. I hate that. I don't even know how we got onto the topic, but somehow it came out that about a year ago, he told 3 guys here at work who live in the town where ow does that if they didnt stay out of his business, he would beat the crap out of them!
I let h believe that I was getting info from somewhere....I never said them, that is his assumption....when I was finding him parked at her place, etc.... He said "it had to be them because they were playing both sides (meaning ow) and it stopped immediately when I confronted them" (bad timing on my part, I guess)...
Now the part that got me mad was hsaid 2 of those guys said that I had asked them to get involved. I have never said a word to any of them, I wouldnt say a word, they are not friends, I don't like them, not the kind of people I would ever confide in about anything, let alone anything as difficult as this...
I took offense and insisted all night that I have never said a word to them about it. Which is the absolute truth. hkept saying "who would have anything to gain from that besides you?" and I looked him in the eye and said "I don't know, who would?????" and left it at that.
Of course someone would, ow, but he doesnt seem to see that. maybe he will. Anyway, we went to bed mad. We never do that.
This morning he told me first thing "I'm sorry about last night", I told him I was to, that I hate that kind of thing, but that I NEVER said a word to those guys...then he said that was nothing compared to the arguements he had with ow, that would have just been a "discussion", but it would have gone on for weeks.
H put his wedding ring on before he left for work...I told him I loved him and want us to be together and be great, and he said "you're stuck with me"....
and then, here's a nice side note that really adds to my day, and makes it tougher. ow is parked right outside my office window again today. right where I can't even do my work without seeing her ugly vehicle and thinking of all the times h got in that car and went places with her.
She has to be doing this on purpose. She evidently told him when he said something several weeks ago that she could park any place she wants to...
This is an aggressive hostile act designed to provoke me. I'm not sure what she wants to provoke me into, thats what I can't figure out. But I'm certain she does. It's really frustrating that it's so hard for me to just ignore. but it is.
I'm guessing not saying a word about her vehicle being parked here to him is the way to go... Why is it so hard?????
