I think that the people at this area of the bb have come to know me pretty well. Or at least know what I'm capable of and how I think. I need honest advice. Sometimes I need to be saved from myself.

Here's the scoop. I went with my ex-SIL to be introduced to a single friend (actually more like an acquaintance). Boy was I nervous and obviously I was questioning my motives. But I met her. She was cute. And she was really nice. It usual takes me awhile to get comfortable with someone but really the conversation went really well for as weird as the meeting was (we went down to her work surrounded by all her coworkers....talk about pressure).

She was really cool. I said maybe we could do something sometime. She gave me her number. And I would like to call her.

So just what the heck am I doing? Bruce went this route and it went over poorly. She is new here and just wants someone to do things with. I'd like the same thing. Is it possible to go that route with no expectations of anything more? I think she would probably would be looking for girl friends though if all she wanted was someone to hang out with.

I know the answer, but I suppose it's just an interest in the things I'm missing in my current sitch (and I don't mean sex...just the possibility). It's probably just curiosity and loneliness. Oh well. Does part of me hope it helps me detach? Probably (although I feel guilty just meeting her...like I'm cheating on my X) Does part of me want to make her jealous and see that she could lose me? Probably...but I'd be afraid she'd find out. I don't want to hurt her. Oh well. It is just a thought. She was really cute though.

Thanks for listening. Is there anywhere here that says "just try a date or two"?

In the end, it's not the years in your life that count. It's the life in your years.
Abraham Lincoln

It is hard to fail, but it is worse never to have tried to succeed.
Theodore Roosevelt