Okay, maybe I am high. I think I look at positives now and think they are not positive enough. I'm just too impatient. I need results too quickly I guess. And UD I never denied being stark raving mad.
My problem is that I can't detach. She sucks me in like a black hole. Or she's like a drug and I'm so addicted to it that I get withdrawals if I can't have it daily or more. Of everyone on this divorced area I feel least detached and least able to handle the reality that I might never be together with this woman.
It's up and down with me and as Bruce indefatigably points out I have this high level of anxiety (or something like that). My expectations tend to run too high.
Okay....so my final thought for the night. I called her to see if she wanted to grab some supper with me. I only got her answering machine. She didn't call me back. It got the crazymaker going and also as usual knocked my PMA down a notch.
BTW UD, where were you last night with all your PMA?
In the end, it's not the years in your life that count. It's the life in your years. Abraham Lincoln
It is hard to fail, but it is worse never to have tried to succeed. Theodore Roosevelt
