I've been out of bed for hours. My dog and cats don't let me sleep in past 6 am so it's torture. I was chatting a bit online (not with ex) then I talked to my badly hung over ex. She eventually stopped by to drop off a book and get some quarters and then we went to play tennis. That was fun. Since then I've just been mowing the lawn and hanging out.

One thing that discouraged me was that she insisted today on talking about how I should have met this girl. That I would have liked her. A fellow DBer suggested I should have said "ah, that's too bad I missed her" or something. I didn't do that. Do you think she seriously wants me to go out? Will that take care of her guilt? Would she really not be jealous?

Okay, to address the urgency thing. It is there. It is in the back of my mind at each interaction that a barrier will come down and we'll at least move to more of a BF/GF sort of thing. That's probably unrealistic. I don't think there will come a time she miraculously admits being madly in love with me. In fact it will be such a slow transition if it happens that I might not even recognize it. I don't know. But is it too much to hope that there will be steps like a regular relationship....where boy meets girl, they go on dates, they see more and more of each other, they fall in love? This way is weird.

In the end, it's not the years in your life that count. It's the life in your years.
Abraham Lincoln

It is hard to fail, but it is worse never to have tried to succeed.
Theodore Roosevelt