Karen,
I did this too.
My Marine husband has/had some qualities that downright frightened me at times. He would pick fights and show an aggressive side that I found both repulsive and sexy.

I do not understand where that guy resides these days. It's as if he vanished. And, again, I'm both happy to see the volatile hothead go, but sorry that that wonderful aggression and testosterone-fueled badass guy is gone.

I know that if anyone ever tried to harm me or the kids, that he'd fight to the death.

But as far as just showing glimpses of having craploads of T coursing thru his veins...nope.

It's interesting to me.

It must be frustrating to him because I've encouraged him to chill out on the fights and short fuse, but at the same time I'm saying "come on, be aggressive with me".

Why is this so natural for some fellas but not for others? Hmmmmmm