Today when H came home from work I gave him a warm, friendly greeting, thanked him for being so supportive, told him I wasn't feeling the greatest and gave him the reassurance he needed. In return, he gave me hugs and emotional support. I feel like I was able to stop my self-pity train from running off the track, and it feels pretty good.
Lillie, thank you for some of your past posts about UL and the familiar train stops we make. I was able to see that what I want from H is something I would get from my father( empathy and humor when I am feeling down). It's not that my H is so unempathic...he has his own issues which make him feel insecure about my love for him. He gets scared that I am withdrawing my love and then it becomes a self-fulfilling prophecy.
I guess what I did today was comfort my inner child and didn't need H to do it; it left me with more energy to give to him, and in return, I ended up receiving much. ( I will probably read this in the morning and say "wtf")??!!
