Yes they are to keep the noisy neighbors and humane society at bay lol. I almost said chickens but I once had about 70 of them everytime I wanted a baby I hatched a few more chicks.(they are so cute) Which brings the forth the reality of the possibility of me having this behavior later in life.
How did D's camp experience turn out? Son 13 just came back from scout camp. Had the time of his life. He was patrol leader and he LOVES to lead so he had a blast. If I remember correctly your D was uncomfortable about going?
Hi Karen... Thank you for asking about my D; the best word I can come up with is that she "tolerated" the experience. She is really happy to be home and is even keeping her room clean! She most definitely does not have your son's leader personality...she is reserved and passively rebellious ( her father's daughter for sure), but she is oh-so-sweet too ( and her dad can be that as well... at times, lol).
Oh well. Live, learn and chalk camp up to "experience." Goodness knows we all have plenty of experiences in life that are tolerable at best. Hope she enjoys what is left of her summer.
Not much to journal here re: our sex life due to it being that-time-of the month. I am feeling blechy, there are some medical issues going on with my parents, and I just sort of feel down. H looks like he has lost his best friend...I am trying to reassure him that he's doing all the right things, but he really needs me to be upbeat and cheery. He mistakes my blahness for something he has done wrong...what's up with that?
We have a few social things this weekend and I feel extra stress now to "be happy" when I am not feeling so great physically. I am just realizing how much pressure I feel from him to be the animated, smiley one...not sure how to undo this.
Karen... This BB is the extent of my journaling, but I do have a few solutions to the blahs ( walking the dog, listening to music, distracting myself, etc). I just wish my H wouldn't personalize my "downness" but I do understand how it must feel for him. I guess I am pining for something that won't happen ( H to hold onto himself and comfort me), so I will do a 180 and reach out to him.
Would it not be nice to just be able to feel blah without it having to be about someone else? I have this same problem if I am feeling quite or blah it becomes about my H and what he has done to make me feel that way not the fact I just feel blah or quite. Would it not be nice if you were simply aloud to feel quite or blah for a day or two just because you do.
Today when H came home from work I gave him a warm, friendly greeting, thanked him for being so supportive, told him I wasn't feeling the greatest and gave him the reassurance he needed. In return, he gave me hugs and emotional support. I feel like I was able to stop my self-pity train from running off the track, and it feels pretty good.
Lillie, thank you for some of your past posts about UL and the familiar train stops we make. I was able to see that what I want from H is something I would get from my father( empathy and humor when I am feeling down). It's not that my H is so unempathic...he has his own issues which make him feel insecure about my love for him. He gets scared that I am withdrawing my love and then it becomes a self-fulfilling prophecy.
I guess what I did today was comfort my inner child and didn't need H to do it; it left me with more energy to give to him, and in return, I ended up receiving much. ( I will probably read this in the morning and say "wtf")??!!
