Scott... When I am in a better space I can more clearly see the many ways he is trying to improve himself and be a good family man; I also understand his struggles and the sacrifices he makes to go the distance with me. He pulls back by being controlling, self-centered, defensive, etc. when I least expect it, and can't see the effect it has on me. It would suit me to remember the whole picture, that he has to push through his issues to keep a regular sex life going, that as a man the pressure does fall on him for arousal, and he has maintained ( although mainly on his terms) a twice weekly schedule for the past yr.
I am a bit softer right now because he came home to get a few things ready for the trip tonite, and when I asked him again if he would rather wait til tomorrow ( we are having major bad weather here) he said, " I want to go up and see my little girl." Not that we'd see her any faster, lol, but I get what he means, and it's touching.
