HP... I have resolved so many times to put the past in the past, to not indulge in negative thinking, to communicate better, to do all this work, and it bothers me that I can become derailed so easily. It's a combo of stress, tiredness, hormones, etc that lowers my ability to HOM, and then I am back on the negativity trail. Even though there can be some benefit to rehashing the old stuff, I am seeing that it's really not worth it.
What set me off was not being "considered"...I know this will come up again, and hopefully I can express myself better ( anything would be an improvement over Wed's fiasco).
Ido feel better having released some tension with him, and now we're in lovey-dovey mode...he has called twice already today to check in. I am sure we will have a nice visit with D12 tomorrow. We are driving 3 hrs tonite in a horrible rainstorm...I just told him I thought it would be better to wait til tomorrow morning ( we need to be there at 10) esp since he has to put in a full work day, but he ix-nayed that idea. sigh.
