Sounds like it is time for some "you" time. Go get your hair done, get a massage, a pretty outfit, new makeup, take walks, listen to beautiful music whatever makes you feel great. It just sounds to me like you are having what my best friend and I call a "beauty crisis" - you need to do some self care and rediscover your sensuality for yourself.
I know it is painful to feel that your H isn't attracted to you physically. I'm not sure if that is really the case. More and more I am accepting that the attraction my H feels to me simply looks different than what I expect AND is very different from what I have experienced from other men when I was younger. Funny, those same men who showed such lusty demonstrations of their attraction would have made completely lousy partners in life. If you can let go of your expectations for how you would know if he were attracted then maybe you will leave more room for him to feel it and you to see it.
