Shouldn't I be happy how things are going?

[JustLearning]

Thanks Haphazard for your response. It does ease the pain some to know that I'm not the only one experiencing this. It also infuriates me that it is so prevelant. What has this world come to?

My sitch is actually almost 3 years old. I knew fairly early on that there was the possibility of an OW. Of course H denied it was anything other than "friends". I chose to ignore it. My H is one to not talk about anything related to emotions, so he never brought her up. I have only learned things about her through a former work associate of H's and from our S8.

Including my son into his twisted logic ticks me off no end. S8 may not understand exactly whats going on, but H is teaching him that it's ok to see other women, even as "friends", while you are still married. I am not ok with that. And when I confronted him about the latest, I told him that exact thing. He doesn't seem to see it that way.

Even after all this time, I still love him and want to make this M work. There are many days I wonder why, but I'm still here, still standing. But it is taking its toll on me and my emotions.

I'm not sure about my H being a N, but I will look into those books.

Thanks again for your input, it's always welcome. Right now i'm trying to put my self back together, and have a bit of fun with my kids before they have to go back to school. And I've been so down, that I'm having to force myself to make these plans. But I know in the end, it WILL be fun and it will be good for both me and my 2 boys.

JL