Or so I thought. It's amazing how one innocent statement from S8 can change my entire world. My son and I were in the car talking about the responibilities of owning pets. S8 made a comment about his Dad's cat liking him now, when the cat didn't last time. I asked how he knew that since he's not been to his dad's since last year.
S8 then proceeded to say that "Dad, me and OW went to that party then went to dad's apt". The only thing I asked was if she had ridden with them in the car, he said yes. This was the party H had told me they had gone to last weekend while I was away with my girlfriend. This is the same OW that I had suspicions about way back near the beginning and H kept telling me they were "just friends". yeah right.
So it's quite apparent that H thinks he can expose my son to his OW and believe that I won't find out. How much more stupid can this guy get? When S8 said this I've been feeling sick to my stomach ever since. And of course am figuring this away weekend he took her somewhere for the weekend and just covered it with a work story. Of course I don't know this for fact, but does it really matter where he is or who he's with? My heart is gutted and don't know what my next step should be.
We are supposed to be talking to the realtor on Monday about the offer that's been made on the house. Do I just let him speak and see what he has to say? Then decide? So many things are running in my head, it's like watching a movie in fast forward.
All I want to do is stay in bed with the covers pulled over my head. I didn't think this could possibly hurt any more than it has over the last 3 years, and yet here it is, more pain.
How is it that I can love a man who can hurt me so deeply? And why me? What have I done to deserve all this?
I'm drowning again in this god-awful misery and not sure how to stop it.
Life is not measured in the breaths we take, but in the moments that take our breath away...
The only thing I asked was if she had ridden with them in the car, he said yes. 
