JL, Not much that I can really say here except to hang in there and follow your heart.
You know my sitch, so you know I'm kind of in the same boat---in a way. I too wonder if my H will ever feel anything for me again. Or, if he does, actually be able to show it. Sometimes he can't get away from me quick enough.
But I do feel like he is trying to reconnect.
I think it's about MLC men who are searching for something---they just can't figure out what. But that connection is still there with the old life too. They just have to decide which life they want to live.
Don't feel guilty about saying that you only need him for the money. You have been having to deal with things on your own for quite some time. Kind of makes us self-sufficient, doesn't it? I wouldn't even need my H's money if I wasn't raising his kids. I've been alone for 3 years.
The thing is, we may not need them to survive in this world---but we want them in our lives. We want a partner, a friend, a lover---not a wallet. The problem is, men seem to put the priority on how well they can support their family, not the familys needs themselves.
So, here we are---patiently waiting for them to realize everything that they are giving up. Patience does wear thin.
