KDK - Wow..sounds like your dreams were much more intense than mine was. When I woke up, I did feel like sh!t but no tears...I am trying not to think too much about what he wants to talk when he gets back. I have been really busy with S8's birthday party. I feel like I have no breather...I get back to work, and have to work on more light sabres, plus print stuff to decorate the house to look for Star Wars-y. I've still got to pop into the Supermarket during my work lunch time today to get items to fill-up the party packs, which I have not yet started at all!! Plus S8 has been sooooo generous. Not only that he invited his classmates, he told them to bring their siblings as well. I was like how many party packs am I supposed to prepare? So, I absolutely have no idea how many kids are coming. Although I've indicated RSVPs, it's not really common over here that ppl respond. *sigh*

Anyway, H did call again last night...about 8.30 pm (my time). Told me that he's on the way to the airport, and I inquired if he is flying off direct to his new Job's country to sort out the minor details. He said probably not..since it seems really tight...He inquired about S8's party. I don't know if I am reading it right, but seems like he WANTS to make it to S8's party, and is afraid that the little detour might make him miss it. As the line was pretty bad, I kept the convo short. H replied by saying that he would give me a call when he arrives at the transit point...

Actually, I was thinking to myself...these 2 weeks without H wasn't that bad. I mean, technically, I could still live my life well without him. It's just the part that I don't have a man to hug and kiss me...(well, I haven't got that for ages...) and to have s@x with me (this one..would be a problem...) But what I meant was...I still have my friends, my family, my kids, my work, my looks ... all is okay . Although I do love H very much, if he chose to leave us, I think it is really really his loss. But I guess all will be revealed soon. Just got to have patience!

Trying to Stay POSITIVE for ME!