I think my brain works too well for my own good. From my last post, H said that he was buying groceries..when he called me at 9.30 pm. H said that he is currently on the west coast of USA, that would make it on Pacific Time, which means it is 6.30 AM!! WTF is he doing up at that time buying groceries? I hate it! He said it's about 9-ish am. He could be holidaying with the OW on the East Coast which makes it 9.30 AM which is a much more decent time to buy groceries. Now, I am dying inside! I did not snoop..I just know the time differences toooooo well. Of course he won't be missing us. He is with her I know he is with her because he did tell me that OW would be going on this trip as well. Sh!T I just didn't know that they would be rendezvouz in another city!!! I really feel like sh!t. I know I am ASSuming alot of things but I think he is lying again. I really feel like crying. I am a disaster at this moment in time. I just want to scream. I have just texted H. No, I sounded normal....asking him about his meetings so far... I didn't let out that I am dying inside and wanting to scream. Why is he doing this??? I just want to kick his ass!! And to think that I went to pay his credit card yesterday with MY money!!! I feel really really like a doormat! I want to cry...gonna go cry now..