Anna - I think you may be right there. I think he is not very committed, and whenever I outrightly ask him if we were joining him, he does seem like he tries to avoid saying an outright YES and more of refuting the idea. But whenever I do NOT say anything about joining, he seems to bring it up himself like "maybe you and the boys can join later". I think for the time being, I am just gonna let it be and let him take the lead. I will just take one day at a time.

I have to say that I was quite depressed last night (Friday night). As I mentioned in my previous post, H asked me to do send some documentation for him for his work permit, and one of the "documents" was photocopy of ALL pages of his passport. I wasn't snooping, but the docs were there and I couldn't help myself and looked. And it CONFIRMED what I already knew..that he spent his birthday with OW!!! He didn't fly off on his birthday as he claimed. He only left the country the next day. I mean I knew he lied, but to have confirmation stare at my face was quite devastating (That's why we shouldn't LOOK/SNOOP at all - fellow Sister Goddesses...we only hurt ourselves. I should listen to myself more. I seem to give NO SNOOPING/LOOKING advice on other's posts but can't seem to follow my own advice?? ) I had to quickly call my girlfriend and mom to talk my heart out to avoid my STRONG urge to call him to say "A-HA..I have proof that you lied". No, I didn't call him at all, and will not bring it up because doing so will only upset him and bring the defense out. I had to swallow whatever sorrow and anger or whatever negative feelings for the time being. Had a chat with my mom and have concluded that him lying to me to see the OW is better than him telling me outright that he is seeing the OW, I guessed. Well, putting this episode behind.

H did text me last night at about 9.30 pm, saying that he has checked into the transit hotel, and he's drinking in the hotel bar. I left it at that. Didn't reply his text. And he texted me at 5.30 am this morning, telling me that he will be taking the 7.20 am flight to the States. And he called me on my mobile at 6.20 AM and was upset that I didn't pick up the house phone and I sleepily (At bloody 6.20 am on a Saturday morning? Of course I was asleep! What was he thinking??) told him that I wasn't at home as I was sleeping over at my parent's house. And he said that he'll be embarking the plane soon and will call me the next day when he arrives. SO... I shall see when he will next call or text me. I have decided to NOT call or text him while he is away, and instead wait for him to do it. These two weeks will tell - either he misses us or not. Nothing I can do...other than wait patiently.

Trying to Stay POSITIVE!!!