KDK/Kim - Thanks for trying to reassure me that I didn't backslide. I sure did not start any arguments. That's probably because our contact for the last two days have been limited to phone texts. I have also been really zipping my mouth. Not saying anything rather than saying something wrong.

Somehow, I am not too sure if there are really positive baby steps from H. I am still quite confused that I don't know what is "normal" or an improvement. I have to go away for work for two days, and did text H to ask if he would handle the kids while I am away, otherwise I would plonk them over at my parents' place. H did say that he would take the boys to school on Wed and Thurs morning; and also pick them up from my parents' place on Wed night. SO, I guessed in regards to him doing some "fatherly duty", well, that would be an improvement, I guessed.

And Kim - I don't know if the OW would be following H if H takes up the overseas job. In one of our earlier discussion, he said "She won't be following. Do you think that her parents will allow her to follow someone who's she is not married to, someone who is not even divorced?" To which I answered "I don't know. So many things that I thought wouldn't happened have happened. SO, I really don't know". Another time when the issue came up, H said "I don't know. Maybe she will come or you guys will come". So, basically, I really don't know what would be the outcome. If she follows, she would have to find a new job at the foreign country, as I think she would have problems getting a dependent's visa in the foreign country. This is cause he is still legally married to me. Currently, she does have a good job and apparently earning good bonuses. So, if she does give up everything to follow H...then I supposed she does LOVE him?? Anyway, H has not updated anything on this "potential" overseas job. I don't want to ask either. I will wait for him to tell me himself, I guessed.

Well, both of them plus a group of others will be going to the states this Friday for work. I have to STOP thinking that they will be hanky-pankying over there. *sigh* HARD!! But I must really focus on more positive stuff. You know, I have been saying that "I don't care about whatever H does!" and yet when I see a glimpse of old H, I get all soft and mushy and yearning for him. YOYO! Detach!Detach!Detach!! Really need to think of positives. Perhaps maybe a day of pampering at the spa.... mmmm massages and facials