Mmm...I wonder if I backslid today? I've not heard from H since his text msg last night at 10.30 pm. Then, I saw that he logged into the MSN Messenger and I IMed him. As usual, he was bz, bz, bz. And he said that he would call me later. I think I just pursued?? I think I am sort of kidding myself when I say that I don't care...I think I still do. *sigh* I just really have to detach! detach ! detach!
Gosh..Anna...I think getting laid is the only connection left with my H. We don't really talk much, other than bits and pieces about the kids. We don't go out together alone, and no..I have not asked it nor pursued that he spend time with me. I know that would be pressuring and that would definitely drive him away. At the moment, I am just leaving everything in his hands. Well, I guessed a little IM wouldn't hurt. Don't think he sees that as pressure? I think I should delete H from my IM contacts. Then I won't keep on thinking about him. Gosh..but it is kinda hard, especially he is going to the States this Friday for two weeks!! The OW would be going as well.... That sucks. This work thing. I really have to have PMA and GAL ...need to start planning on what to do to fill my time.
