You know what Yoyo - you sound so sad and I don't blame you it is such a rollercoaster and a hard one to stay on but we do - Why because we love our H's. You do sound like your sitch has got hope, which is good and all I can say is just keep doing what you are doing, DBing as much as possible and lots of "as if's" you were doing really well and look at the confusion in your H when you have been acting "as if" don't backslide now and show him your old self or you may undo your good work. Be happy with who you are but obviously for all our Marriage sakes we all have to change a bit, some more than others but nothing is one sided. As NYSurvivor says we can only control ourselves and our own actions not theirs. So control you and your reactions to him the best way you can and keep busy, the more you keep busy the less you will think of him and your sitch. It will still pop up but if your busy it wont pop up as often. (Well only when he is around and something else pop's up ) No that was a joke to make you laugh. Come on Yoyo - you were doing well and you can continue to, what will be will be and we can only live day to day with what we are going through. Promise yourself tomorrow you will have a happier day and you just might..(((()))) to you..Kim
) No that was a joke to make you laugh. Come on Yoyo - you were doing well and you can continue to, what will be will be and we can only live day to day with what we are going through. Promise yourself tomorrow you will have a happier day and you just might..(((()))) to you..Kim 
