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Which he got upset. He doesn't like it if I say I love him and want him to stay blah blah blah, and he doesn't like it if I totally don't want to have any feelings for him. I can't win.




Hi Yoyo girl, from what I understand, this is typical WAS behaviour. Your H sounds really, really confused and this may be the only way he can deal with it.
Maybe what may help is to take the focus off of your feelings, or off feelings altogether in your discussions, or hold off R talks completely. Instead concentrate on getting through your life. Let him run the course of his confusion for now. It seems like no matter what you said, it would be taken the wrong way and the no-resistance course seems like your best bet right now.

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I am just gonna continue on with my life.





This sounds like a plan. Because this really is the best that you can do. I hear what you're saying, how it hurts, but for now, the best that you can do is help yourself make it through this in the best possible way.

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As for the ML...As per my previous posts...I am using him too




He is your H and this is a way of expressing closeness. I think it is great that your H is continuing a physical relationship with you. As long as you feel that it is a way of bringing you together at any level, i think it is great.

Take care of yourself