Well...H didn't turn up for the dinner on Tuesday night, citing his tight schedule at the office. (Yeah, right!)
Wednesday,...around lunch time H texted and said that he wants to have lunch. Wants to date me again?!? I was not free and therefore declined. We had a brief "discussion" via text messaging. H: If our sitch becomes rat sh%t, can I still date you in years to come? Me: Why would I want to date someone who doesn't care about my feelings or his children's wellbeing? Besides, if you go off, means you will be with OW, and there would be no future for a US. H: Maybe I will come to my senses and think how stupid I was? Me: By then, we would have lead stable lives and I don't think it would be a good idea to put boys into turmoil.
Anyway, I went to my company dinner...in a sexy Ralph Lauren dress. yeap..was fun. Drank a little bit. Flirted a little bit. I got home after H (He called me from home and wondered when I will be back) .... and he initiated and we did ML. Later, I don't know what happened cause we started talking and he started telling me that he doesn't want to give me so much $$ for kids' maintenance and that I am using the boys to get to him...blah blah blah. He was very adamant to leave us for the OW. Finally, I got kinda fed-up and said "up to you..you give me a proposal and I will look at it".
Next day, Thursday,..I noted down my positives in a list today. When I looked at it, I have to say that everything looks good, other not having a H. I have to say life would be okay without H for me. The only sad thing for me now would be how my kids would be. H picked the boys up from my parents' house (I was out with some co-workers ..bowling) and when I got back, we had some snacks together..and there he goes telling me that "He loves and cares for me"..but he still needs to go. Later that night, he told S8 that "daddy and mommy may live in separate houses, and that daddy will see him over the weekends". I was not there but H told me later (with crocodile tears? in his eyes) that S8 tried really hard to hold back his tears but did eventually cry. H was still very adamant that he wants to leave. I really don't care for this man anymore. Whatever he wants to do, he can go ahead. I don't want to think or waste anytime with this guy...
This morning, Friday... took S8 to my parents' place, S8 looked "funny". I can't describe and my mom is very concerned about S8 now. I have just called H and told him to STOP talking to S8 without first consulting with me. Up until now, my dad is still oblivious to our sitch. I told H that since our sitch has come to this stage, I would have to inform my dad about our sitch since he would be the key male role model for the boys.. H said to delay it cause he hasn't really made up his decision. I said "you already said that you wanted to leave last night. And now, you said you don't know". H replied "I really don't know. But I will speak to your dad when the time comes". So, I am going to leave him to talk to my dad himself. I am so sick of this man...I have no words.
A little PMA and mini-goals I am bringing the boys to an outdoor cinema tonight...to watch "Revenge of the Sith" AGAIN...I think the boys must have watched it like at least 4 times already.
Sat AM - YOGA Sat PM - Lunch with good gal pals Sat PM - Movie (War of the Worlds) and Dinner Sun AM - S5's Family Day at School...
Later, I don't know what happened cause we started talking and he started telling me that he doesn't want to give me so much $$ for kids' maintenance and that I am using the boys to get to him...blah blah blah. He was very adamant to leave us for the OW. Finally, I got kinda fed-up and said "up to you..you give me a proposal and I will look at it". 
