Hey Swimmer, how ya doing? I'm seeing some of what you pointed out earlier in the week.
Moved about 90% of my stuff Saturday. Heavy tools will have to stay for another week while I locate a storage area that I can afford.
Had a few emotional moments but kept up appearances, no tears until I was alone in my new home, sitting in my old easy chair surrounded by boxes. XW had packed two boxes of kitchen stuff and even bought a few things for me that we didn't have duplicates of. She was cold, but thoughtful during the move. Bought me some towels and a shower curtain too.
But she also packed two champaigne glasses we got as part of the 2000 New Years Eve Party we attended. That night she wore a striking red dress and looked great. She and I danced all night, all very romantic and had a great time. The glasses screamed "get out of my life" while I unwrapped them. A few more tears.
Do I still love her? I know I love the woman I married 18 years ago, but this person isn't her. Is she still in there somewhere? I may see an occasional glimpse. Could we ever get back together and should I try? God, if I only knew the answer to that one. My heart wants to try, but my brain asks why I would let myself in for more of what I had over the last seven months. Could we be friends? Another good question. I guess it is too soon after the break-up to make any intelligent decisions. Right now I'll work on putting my apartment, and my life, into some order.
Don't cry because it's over...Smile because it happened.
