Haven't posted here in a while because I was hoping I wouldn't have to go beyond Newcomer. Too bad. Yesterday I was called out of a meeting to go to Personnel - sherrif deputy handed me a summons to divorce court. I surprised myself with how well I took it.
After work I went to the gym and did a hard workout and then home to make supper. W was sleeping - her method of avoiding uncomfortable situations is to sleep through them. When she got up afte rI had cleaned up the dishes etc. I was pleasant, said hi, told her there were leftovers in the fridge and went upstairs to the office to pay some bills. We didn't speak after that except when, just before she went to bed, I called her to give her a car insurance card for her van. She had a very pained look on her face.
To read the "complaint" against me, I would put me in jail and throw away the key. I sat somewhat agahst at the untruths in writing, signed by her and a notary. I guess her attorney felt he had to come up with some really bad stuff to make a D the correct answer.
I have an appointment with my attorney this afternoon. I can see this will get to be an expensive battle if I let it. I can't agree to the terms she has but it looks to me like this is the first extreme shot that is designed to get me to agree to something less draconian.
At this time I don't see any way to reach a reconciliation. I choose to ignore the lies in her complaint and consider them to be legal fabrications. I will not permit her to make me bitter and I will maintain my PMA as best I can. But hugging my kids and walking away from our home will be the hardest thing I have ever done.
Some have said that W's change their mind at the 11th hour and start working on the M. I don't think I can embrace that hope at this time, I have had too many disappointments of late. Perhaps sometime down the road I'll try, or perhaps after the D. Right now I don't feel the love I had for her just a few days ago.
