Quote: Lately, I've been letting the knowledge that she's participating in and even initiating sexual encounters for my benefit rather than because it is what she enjoys bother me. (Gawd, is that an awful sentence or what?).
I'm not sure what you are expecting, then. She is trying to participate more often, to initiate more often... give her a break! Of course it is a monumental stretch for her, because she wants NONE OF IT! It seems like a small thing to you, because it's not an effort for you. Different perspectives! You are having sex, and if it feels like it is only for your benefit, then appreciate the fact that she loves you enough to want to give you that much! If she eventually starts to internalize it, and really gets into it, you've struck gold!
Quote: I guess I give her an A for the mechanical effort toward sex, but no more than a D for internalizing it and trying to grow out of her LDness like Cinemanymph is doing.
You're really asking for a lot! Asking someone to 'grow out of' their LDness is like asking someone to 'grow out of' their left handedness... really not useful or pleasant, unless one has a broken left hand!
I can understand that it is still a blow to you, and that it would be really nice to have her WANT to have sex with you, but you have to remember that she is TRYING! She isn't hitting 100%, but she is TRYING! The other option isn't so good...
