HP, yeah, I know all about that bluntness. I'm hitting that dissillusionment we talked about a few weeks ago myself right now. Lately, I've been letting the knowledge that she's participating in and even initiating sexual encounters for my benefit rather than because it is what she enjoys bother me. (Gawd, is that an awful sentence or what?). Anyway, it has put me in a bit of a funk thinking that what feels to her as a monumental stretch looks to me like minimal effort. I guess I give her an A for the mechanical effort toward sex, but no more than a D for internalizing it and trying to grow out of her LDness like Cinemanymph is doing. I have problems with her current approach: 1) She hasn't internalized it, and therefore I feel like a real shiit having her do things that she is only doing to please me, and 2) because she hasn't internalized it, it stops if she isn't constantly reminded that I need lurv. As a result, I've been finding it very hard to initiate, instead I get thoughts along the lines of me being selfish, and what does she want instead of just doing it. in the end, I wind up keeping to myself and getting resentful about the whole thing, which darned it I know isn't healthy. Time for another kick in my but. What ever happened to Corrie anyway? Could really use a strong dose of her medicine right about now!
