HP I did not take your post as fishing for compliments.
Add in the fact that I am in pain and walk like a little old lady and that MrHP is passive about his desire, and you have a recipe for a person who no longer identifies herself as a babe. I think this is causing you more problems than the lbs.
I got this way (felt like a old man) before I had my back surgery. The injury and "pain" made me feel 30 years older. Sometimes other good things did not mattered.
About your H realizing your pain during IC, a decent guy does care. I hope this problem is repairable soon.
