I think there is a difference between being angry and having a bad temper. I think people who know me and even I have a hard time recognizing or respecting my anger because I don't have a bad temper.

My sister was describing something her boyfriend did that made her angry and she used the phrase "I was infuriated.". I just don't get infuriated very often and even though I've described myself as being a bit of a crybaby in my marital relationship, I'm really not generally emotionally reactive in that way either. For instance, I've pretty much never cried or lost my temper or even felt like I might in any sort of work or social or otherwise public situation. Therefore, the fact that my relationship with my H makes me cry and even lose my temper sometimes makes me feel like it must be really terrible and long for escape so I can just go back to being my generally calm, happy self. Does this make sense?

"Tell me, what is it you plan to do with your one wild and precious life?" - Mary Oliver