Well, I am trying to keep motivated but when I got home today H was here....he worked over night last night and came here to sleep. I picked up hannah and Devin(stepson) and came home. H said that he thinks that I am having sex with someone...then he also told me that he tried to stop talking to OW but that he cant. I said fine...I am sick of this being thrown in my face...I hate seeing pictures and everything else. He said that he wants to see a picture that OW has sent me so I showed it to him. He was upset and said that he believed me that she gave it to me. Then when he left to go to work again for the night at 6 he got on the phone with OW and she made everything all better again. He then said that she had those pictures and they were on her im system. I guess that makes it okay to have picture with a married man all over her desk and her phone....its completely wrong. Now he said that I make her look better and better to him and that he has worked things out with her and they are going to be together again. Well....yeah! Two pigs deserve eachother! I have our children at home and he would rather spend time with OW and her kids and go to work. I am fed up with him and I am sick of being hurt. I thought that he realized exactly what OW was doing but he fell into her spell again. H said that he would like to see the IM that she sent me....I figured FU to him....that will just give him for fuel for the fire againt me.
I want to be strong and happy and I am slowly realizxing that maybe he isnt the man for me.
I am so dumb...today one of the officers that came to the break in at work asked me for my number and to go out. I had to give him my cell because of the report but I said that I was separated and just not ready yet....I guess I just wanted my hubby....now I am slapping myself in the face...he was so hot and nice...maybe we will hae to talk regarding the break in and I can do something about it then.
