I agree with all of you. I am sick of being sad. I hate that I allow some stupid idiot to ruin my entire day. I try so hard to detach and I do a good job until he plays his game of not talking to Melinda(OW) and I dont know what it does to me. I dont show him my anger and frusteration but I allow all of you to see it. I apologize to you for that.
Kay.. I do hate all of this turmoil...I do wish that I could have instant answers but do understand that it isnt going to happen. I just hate that he has been gone three months and really doesnt know what he really wants...so wishy/washy.
Waw... Its so hard to act as if OW isnt in the picture but I guess that I have to in order to have happiness. Its even harder when the who*e keeps trying to contact me to make me feel crazy and the all of the things that she makes up to H. I agree with you too that I have to do this.
Thank all of you for support...I really dont know how I could exsist without you. I can and will be a strong person. Hello mind...move over heart.
Anna... Thank you! Your words are inspiring and instead of moping I am Going to...(not try) to be happy and be the teflon that NY tells me. I didnt force him into this mess with OW...it was his choice. I dont need to put up with his drama. I am going to take your advise.
D... I am really a happy outgoing person that can get along with anyone. I love tht you give me your tough love...thats what I need. I do understand what you are saying about being down and the later being me again(flirty and friendly). I think it takes me a little bit to understand what he is doing to me and then I realize I cant allow it so I promise I dont have two personalities. You know that I love you and your tough love...you big meany
