Guess What Everyone????? I have been doing great with not calling H....(Yeah me)lol. I have spoken to him though. H told me that he has been worried about me because I haven't called him lately. I was polite and said that I have just had a lot of things going on. :-) Don't get me wrong...things have been hard but I have been keeping myself busy and my mind on Hannah and everything else. Today is stepson9 birthday and I am suppose to go to H mom house for dinner. I am not sure if I should go but I am just thinking about Devin(s9). He never did anything wrong. How do I behave there....well, you know what I mean. Yesterday H called and I called him back and we didn't talk about R but H said that he is not ready to move on to the next step....the big "D"..I think that his mind is wandering now. H said that he would like to come home still...but wishes we sould get along better/always.(The only time that we ever argue is because of OW) I am getting sick of the drama...and after the email and phone call from OW with all of the things that she slapped me in the face with....I have a little wall built around my heart....well, at least I am trying to build it. A lot of bad things were said...especailly that when we were intimate he didnt want to be. (I am not the one that started things)he said that he felt that he was using me.(Maybe because he love OW??? Who knows) I am not absorbing everything anymore...I dont want to be sad and frusterated anymore...We (Hannah and me) don't deserve it) I feel a lot stronger today..plus now I have had three date proposals...but I dont think that I am ready for that yet. I don't know what the next step is with H and I am going to take it one day at a time. Does anyone have any suggestions for birthday dinner tonight. How I need to act and things that I should/shouldn't do? Please help!
