I guess that I was hoping if it was me then he wouldn't go to her. I see her online all day long and I just wish she would fall off of the Earth...lol! I am so tempted to say something through email to her but I dont want to start the problems. Why dont people understand how wonderful they have it and just leave well enough alone.
At least you got some...LOL I havent been intimate with my H in a LOOOOONNNNNGGGG time. Again, you thought that being intimate with H would mean something, sex does not solve the problems, but it does help to regain closeness, so all does not have to be looked at like a negative.
Quote: sex does not solve the problems, but it does help to regain closeness, so all does not have to be looked at like a negative.
This is quite well-said. I don't get any closeness with H other than these ML sessions. I do feel some connection in that sense. I don't feel used, cause lately my hormones have been raging and I am thinking about ML all the time.. terrible I know...LOL As my mom said..."Use H as a S#x slave.." ha ha ha..LOL
Blonde - Think the key is NOT to expect any cuddles or ILYs or tender kisses, then you won't be disappointed when you don't get it. (After-all, you don't expect your s@x-slave to kiss and cuddle you, right? You should be whipping him...ha ha ha LOL)
It is certainly one sitch one day at a time - it feels like we are dealing with a different prob. with the same person each day - keep working on it and remember each day is another opportunity.
Couple of thoughts since i have been absent...
I can certainly understand dodgerMFs positive attitude if you both have agreed to go out and party with him - that would certainly lend a smile to the face and a spring to the step.
National No Calling WAS Day - should now be followed by "Go out and find my smile day" - usually celebrated at a bar or lake - with friends and family -
when that road trip starts make sure you dip a bit south if you get around Toronto and pick me up, its only about 15 hours from there
Morning Everyone... I did a great job and didn't talk to H last night but then I received a phone call for him this morning and I called hi to let him know. Of course he didnt answer his phone and hasn't returned my call. H has always talked to me in the morning. My mind is feeling like he must be with OW. H told me yesterday that he was goin gto his sisters(home for him) and going to sleep....Well, we can't sleep from yesterday at 4pm until 9am today. I hate that he hasnt returned my call. Why do they have to be like this...I did so well yesterday...and now he is playing games. I am sad again....why couldn't he be nice call me back...say good morning and let me have a day like I deserve.
I screwed up...I can't leave well enough alone. I spoke to H...tried to be strong and couldn't. I then was stuip and asked him that I will help him get a car if he will never talk to OW or see her again. He said forget it. I thought maybe that would make him think. Now I feel like I was trying to buy his love and affection. I am at work and can't stop crying. I want this to be over. How can I fix what is so bad.
Let me give you an idea. Sixers star Allen Iverson wears a rubberband around his wrist. Whenever he makes a mental mistake on the court, he reaches down and stretches it then lets it go so it snaps on his wrist. This pain helps him remember not to do it again.
When I was knee deep in the early stages of DBing, I was wearing one of those yellow "Livestrong" bracelets. I would think bad thoughts or say something non-DB to my W and I would yank that thing a let it go, WHACK!. It worked very well.
Now at 7-11, you can get all kinds of these wristbands for like $2.00 each. You can even get a red "Anaheim Angels" one if you want. Try it girl, I bet it helps you. If that doesn't work, I'll have to gather up some of our BBS friends, hunt you down in Lakewood and have some kind of intervention.
Bottom line Michelle, be strong, show your incredible strength when he's on the phone, when he's around, etc. It will pay off, you'll feel better about the BLONDEQT!!
Sometimes maybe it's best not to do anything. So, just drop the rope again, leave the ball in his court, and see what he does with it while you take a nice time-out for yourself.
This is so true. I have decided that I am going to the beach this weekend. Yesterday I got my hair highlighted...its a little too blonde..but I am taking this extremely blonde girl and D1 to rent a room at the Hilton in Huntington Beach. We are going to get away. Watch out...Michelle and Hannah are on the loose....lol! Thanks all for the input!
terrible I know...LOL As my mom said..."Use H as a S#x slave.." ha ha ha..LOL