I did have a nice long post listing all the happy things in my life and don't you know my cat came walking across the keyboard and somehow left me with a blank slate. It's what she does when I sit here...walks back and forth til finally finding her spot atop the monitor where all I can see is the occassional glimpse of her glowing eyes.
All I can say now is that I life a full life...I laugh...I make others laugh...I spend a lot of time with friends, family, my kids doing all kinds of great things...fishing with son, dancing/singing with dd, joking/dancing/singing karaokee with my friends...reading enjoyable books etc.
I am a very happy person...I love to laugh...love to make jokes...love to make others laugh....
I came to this site almost 4 years ago when my h moved out...that was a time when I posted every day...when you'd see more of the day to day...good And bad...I don't come as often anymore...most often now I post when I'm frustrated or when someone replies to me so of course all you're going to see is the neg.
Quote: Would this be possible and be a 180? ask H for 1 hour during the day and you and the kids could meet him for lunch. Or just you. Just one hour.
because of the hours h works he doesn't see the kids much...there was no way around it before (I used to call on my way home from prenatal apt when I was preg with dd so he could at least see son awake...I'd ask him if he could grab lunch with us but he was always too busy)...but after learning of his a...that occured all during the day (he admitted to having lunch with her at least 3x a week)...upon his return I suggested that when he knows he's going to have the free time he let me know and I'd come down to visit with the kids for a quick lunch (grab some subs, go to the park etc)...it happend once and that was the end of that. now he's too busy. I'd love to have one hour but he claims to not even have the time for a phone call never mind an hour. "just" one hour to you and to me sounds like "just" one hour but I can't even get a 1 min phone call from him during the day.
I don't mean to sound so negative...I'm not a negative person...I try to see the postive in things but after a while it's like looking for a needle in a haystack.
I really don't know what to do anymore...I don't want to D but right now it seems like the only other option is to just pretend I'm OK with this life...that's not fair to me...to H or more importantly to the kids...we all deserve to be happy.
