I just read thru this thread, and the whole time I kept thinking - this lady is angry, she is upset about being stuck in her life, she is not happy about one single thing. And then this very last post gave me a little different sign. But LL, what ARE you happy about? I know you're busy and cook and clean and volunteer and do gobs of stuff for GAL, but does any of it make you happy? do you smile? We all have plenty of things to be sad and upset about, but we also usually have at least one thing to post that is happy or good. This thread started in July (?) and I didn't get that feeling one single time from you.

Would this be possible and be a 180? ask H for 1 hour during the day and you and the kids could meet him for lunch. Or just you. Just one hour.

Live your life while you are still living.
Riding the trail less traveled.