I believe the most difficult task ahead is the rebuilding of trust. I honestly believe that the SSM issue has been fixed, but I will not rest on my laurels. I will make every effort possible to fill my role as husband. My efforts thus far include daily initiation, (she turned me down once, due to fatigue), more small signs of my love, and more acts of service.
I believe that the cracks in this ship have been caulked, so the task at hand is to start bailing. I hope that I don't find any bombs mixed in with the sludge as we clean up the mess at hand.
W has been talking a lot about our future, something she hadn't done in months. She is returning to her normal state of kindness. She shows genuine remorse when things come up that remind her of what she has done.
I am thankful for the support I received here. I look forward to having the opportunity to help others with what I have learned.
I wasn't sure I had it in me to forgive W for what she had done, for the deliberate and painful things she did and said. I found out that forgiveness is a small but very significant gesture, and that the world needs a lot more to go around. I could have run out and had an affair in retalliation, but instead, I found this place and you wonderful people, and I learned to suck it up and grow.
I honestly don't care what my friends think about me taking her back in spite of her actions. In fact, if they give me grief, I will go find new friends. My real friends want us to stay together anyway. My pseudo-friends can jump off a bidge (OM included). "From only its claw we may judge of the lion"
This is the most crucial and taxing time of this whole ordeal. It is now that the bones of our broken marriage must be reset. It is that structure that will allow us to truly restore our love. As happy as I am that we have made it to this point, I am being cautious, lest this prove to be a false recovery.
