I don't know you very well and may be off, but when I feel alone because there is distance between my W/BB and me, being with her or thinking about her when we are at odds, is worse than getting away by myself. I feel better alone/not with a friend, than staying home wishing something good would happen.
I moved about 28 times when I was a kid so I did not have many long term friends. Some friends were not into the things I liked at some places I lived so I learned to take care of myself or be with a friend. Your experiences and preferences may vary.
Sleep in the van, ride the mountain bike, pee in the woods, cook over a twig fire, breath in the cool mountain air. Does it get any better? Yes! Hold and ML with someone you love and eat chocolate ice cream. Sometimes the better option is not available so you have to go with something else.
