I declined the offered position at work today, since it would essentially involve a pay cut when one considers the bonuses that I am currently getting. My proposal to be a buyer is in the works, and seems to be a much better option for me.
W never came home or called yesterday. My guess is she won't be home tonight. I also bet that she will be going to OM's DD graduation of Saturday.
I am going to do something fun tonight. I haven't figured out what yet, but I will stay on guard. I am at a point where I could be easily swayed by an attractive woman, and I need to keep my moral base intact. I am tired of coming home to an empty house. I am tired of having things to share, but no one to share with. (except you fine SSM folks and my small base of "real" friends)
I might just drive up to the mountains this weekend. I will check the weather report, and maybe I will pack up for a solo excursion into the woods, or down a river. I just bought a bunch of pouch Indian food from the Indian grocer, (scoop up a bit of river water and boil in bag) All I need to do is throw the boat in my van and head out.
I need to do something to make this a clean break. If I stick around here, invariably I find myself thinking about W, and I have no desire to think about her at this point. It is like the old saying..."if you can't say something nice..." only I am applying it to my thoughts. I am having a very hard time thinking nice thoughts about W. She has shown nothing but contempt for my feelings, and a blatant disregard for any sort of civility. I don't need people like that in my life.
