The music was great tonight. Multiple stages, and great talent. During set changes, this guy did some perfect Leo Kottke that stopped me in my tracks. I met with friends, we went up to the stage and waited for the headliner. We were early, so I offered to make a beer run. I never made it back. By the time I headed back with the three beers, the "tapers" and crowd had barricaded my way back to the guys I met up with earlier. As I backtracked to find a way around, I ran in to my other good friend and his W. We chatted momentarily, and I quickly offered up one of my burden to them. I then tried to head back up, but my path was thwarted. BB then showed up with his newest girlfriend. I haven't even told him that I am trying to save my M. He is anti-M, and proud of it. We are opposites in many ways...

The music made me think. All live music makes my head work double time. Tonight, just as Derek Trucks roadies were making the last adjustments, W called. She called from SILs, (she claimed, but the # was "restricted" as SILS and millions of others) I was brief on the call with her. She said she was staying over at SILS again. I said I wasn't surprised, and that she was missing out on some fine strawberries that I picked and cleaned for her. I let her know a bit about what I was up to, and said it would be nice to see her tomorrow, and that I hoped she had a good night.

The berry picking today was bittersweet. Sweet, because those gems are the best berries, and bitter because those little red hearts bled all over my hands. W & I once joked about how many berries were on the property, and how our kids wouldn't eat dinner on the days the berries were ripe, after gorging all day. The berries were one of the things that made the land feel special, and sold us on the idea of building here. Sadly, W thinks that was a mistake.

I can't wait forever for this ship to change course, and I am certainly no chump or doormat. I need to live, and love, and share my life. W is choosing not to share with me, and all I can do is shine my light to her while I continue my life and prepare for impending changes.

Lessons learned tonight:
There are a lot of single women out there. (BB)
Group Plans are tough to carry out (meeting with friend group #1)
Plans often change for the better.(IBID)
It is good to rub her, because then she purrs (cat)