I know he still has feelings, that's why he makes so many tactless jokes and stuff.
He wouldn't try so hard to bug me if he didn't care.
Re BIL, I genuinely care about the man, we have known each other 18 years now, including the 20 odd months we didn't speak. If I were to get him involved in this, it would be to wind X up and I'm not doing that. I respect the man too much to hurt him again. I didn't mean to hurt him the first time. I was just upset, traumatised and hadn't had sex for a couple of months and he was there, being all understanding etc so one thing just led to another.
It was actually really good at the time but afterwards he expected an R and it was never like that. I love X and all I wanted was X, really, and that made us argue and he felt used.
If he were to come round for tea it would have to be genuine.
I am going to state to him though, that if he intends to keep in contact with me, it has to be as friend's only.
