Maybe its time to be honest and direct with yourself about the issues of loneliness/companionship.
If you want to keep DBing (even while letting the sitch take a seat on the backburner for a bit), a nice distractive eve at the local pub might serve you well.
If you are thinking about seeking a real companion for one night or more, I agree with Lou, there are better alternatives - like listing your wonderful pic and description in the personals.
Whatever you choose, try not to behave in a way that is a mere reaction to X, as this still empowers him too much. Behave in a way that is well thought-out and that is in your best interests longterm.
