No, I can't go away as there's no one that would have me for that length of time. I ocassionally stay 1 night with a friend, but never longer than 1 night.
At any rate, X was supposed to have DD4 again on Friday for a week so I can't go anywhere.
I have lost hope that it will ever get any calmer and feel a bit down today. Not so much about the R but more that I just feel completely trapped in this sitch and it's not like I ever will be able to get away from him because he is the father of my children.
People should think more carefully before they have children and they should DEFINITELY think more carefully about divorce once there are children there, because the impact is so bad, you're not able to parent as effectively and you are bound to each other forever so if you don't get on with each other, God help your children.
Since people are bound by their children, I don't know why they bother to D, it would be far less damaging to the kids to just work through the M than fight constantly for years in a post-D hell.
