I know you are all right. I have no intention of ever taking him back. He obviously has serious problems. It makes me feel really creepy, actually.
I am beginning to wonder if his on-off behaviour and then I ILY remark might have been part of a break down?? Maybe he was just losing it?? His extreme anger is totally disproportionate for the situation and to threaten me, kick me and try to run me over with his car just because he's going to be late for a holiday.
I tried to say that he shouldn't treat me like that and he just started on about how he doesn't care about me and we're not together etc.
Well, plenty of people are 'not together' but that doesn't mean that I deserve to be frightened half to death, sworn at, kicked and threatened with a very large car.
The police have told me they are coming this evening before 10.30pm and I am going to press charges.
When he comes back from his holiday on Sunday, I will make damn sure they arrest him.
Typically my lawyer isn't in till Monday. I haven't got a clue what to do about his contact with DD4. I am going to refuse the holiday he was supposed to take her on at the end of the month as he did a similar thing with DD3 and took her from me so I don't want to risk it.
I thought he was getting a handle on his depression/anger, obviously I was wrong.
I'm not going to agree to anymore contact until I speak to my lawyer. The trouble is, I don't have any money and I'm not sure if I can get legal aid.
I know he will try for custody of DD4 as he was threatening to do so. I didn't even do anything. I agreed to him taking her on holiday. All I asked is for him to wait till her nursery session finished.
So he thinks he can swear and scream and trip me up and threaten me just because he's going to be late??
When I collected DD4 I was terrified. I told her teacher and they say they won't let him in the nursery at all. They are disgusted.
My friend came round for the afternoon so I didn't have to be alone.
We found text messages from X and answer machine messages, very abusive. Text message said 'I'm outside the nursery and I'm going to go in there and parade your hidden children to everyone.'
And on my answer machine
'I am furious. All 3 of your kids are here and you're not even in. You're not keeping to an arrangement. They've come to see you and more to the point, Alicia, since you don't count' etc etc. 'If you don't get here now, I am going to expose you to all the people at that school and show them what sort of a mother you are' blah blah blah.
WOW - it's great he did that. Before he used to flip out but the court wouldn't believe me because he never did it on record. Now I've got proof.
He's falling apart because to slip up like that is massive.
He used to do similar stuff in front of the kids before, which is why I stopped contact with them. I figured if it was just him and them, he couldn't do that anymore. I loved them too much to let him do that to me in front of them.
He has never maltreated them, but he doesn't care how he treats me in front of them, which is almost as bad.
I don't know what's going to happen now. I'm really scared.
I can't call CPS as they recommended that X have my other kids (they didn't believe me; he's always so lovely, he never flipped in public and I was always crying so they believed him).
I will just see what the police and my lawyer can do.
My friend thinks he's furious because he can't control me or my life. Our wires get crossed, I go out, he's furious because I'm supposed to be there.
He calls everything off again and then gets mad because I don't hit the floor and die like I used to. Instead I finish my book and get a publisher to accept it. I start DD4 at nursery when he wanted her home educated. I get another man to do my website instead of him so I don't need him and he hates that.
I start college. I keep my PMA up most of the time and I think it bugs him. He can't stand it. I think this has been bubbling away ever since his email just before my birthday. He's pissed that I don't call him, he's pissed I don't call the girls (so he can have indirect contact with me).
Well, he's blown it now.
I am scared they will take DD4. I didn't do anything wrong with my other children, either and they took them.
