Hey, Dude! I remember you from when I first got on here in Oct. 04. Sorry about your predicament. I'm in the same boat as far as keeping and believing the faith. I am trying to put in this in God's hands, but I am having trouble letting go.
So, I can totally relate to what you are going through. Maybe, you can shed some light and give me some pointers in offering up the sitch to God.