Quote: But wasn't your goal to hopefully be the recepient of some sexual release? In other words, for you to even get a chance at a hj, you had to go through the process you've described.
No. That’s where I worried about appearing to be portraying myself as some kind of saint. I do/did it out of a genuine desire to bring her pleasure. Reciprocation would be nice, but it wasn’t and still isn’t the motivation. The motivation is that I love her and want to please her.
Quote: Did you ever let her know how hurtful this was? Or did you answer with a "that's okay, honey"?
Sadly, usually the latter.
Quote: Honey, I've been thinking about your concerns about not being a good lover. You know what I would really enjoy next time we make love? I would love it, if…
I like that. I even think I could do that. I just need to come up with something to put after the “if” that I really would like but that won’t push too hard. I know I couldn’t ask for a BJ, or to watch her MB, or anything that she presently believes to be too extreme. I readily acknowledge that we may never get to something like those, but I’m sure I can come up with something a little different. Maybe the starfish…
