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I too have been going through the seesaw of satified, happy, wanting more. I've begun seriously searching myself and my religion for answers, but so far haven't really found it. MrsGGB has really stepped up to the plate, and has stretched herself quite a bit. I'm still not convinced that she really initiates for herself rather than to keep me from getting crabby (I'm still working on that too). The gals on the BB have posited that she may not that be motivated because she doesn't let herself O. If only she came with the instruction manual Anyway, I'll be curious to see what answers you get here.