While I was out working Friday night my husband decided to go out with the kid's to a friend's. To make a long story short. Two things really ticked me off. I have a don't cross the line rule ZI have had since I had children. Don't EVER drink and drive with children with you. I feel you shouldn't drink and drive at all. But with innocent children..no way. My husband knows this and in fact we had a fight just the other week about it. He told me he only had a beer and then 3 hours had passed. My point I don't give a [censored] don't ever drink and drive with our children again!! Find a babysitter or go out when I am at home. So I get home and he is not here or the kid's. I go to the friend's home after working 8 hours and it's late and pick up my children from there. But let me back up I was also angry because he did not do one thing in the house while I was at work yet again. Another fight we have been having since I started working. My husband thinks it is beneath him to have to do housework. But yet HE wants me to work fulltime and have the benefit of my income but yet refuses to help. Well, let me restate that. He WILL vaccuum and fold what laundry is left in the dryer. But we all know there is so much more to run a household inside and out. So on this night he couldn't even cook dinner yet again he had to get them take out, do nothing in the house and then be drinking over there. I was fuming! I picked them up and let him know not to come home tonight. His response F you. I said don't even push me I mean it. Of course he tried to push it and came home at 5:00 a.m stumbling drunk. I told him he was not welcome and to leave or I would force the issue of him leaving. I felt I had to stand my ground. He never listens to anything I say. He left and came home the next day. I again told him to leave. He said he wasn't going anywhere until he found a place. I said nope you are going now and then you will have to look for a place that much faster. I told him he had already been warned that if he drinks and drives with our children then it is over, also had the same warning about dating sites. I told him I was just tired of it and wore down. That I was standing up for myself and wasn't going to tolerate this kind of behavior from him. He was refusing to leave so I phoned in some help from his dad. His dad got him on the phone and he left. So today makes the 3rd night that he will not be here. I feel kind of torn. I feel such relief and and like chains have been liften and a heavy burden off my shoulders. But on the other hand I do love him. I just don't love this man. My husband has changed a lot. The man I see today is not the man I married. Maybe he has depression or something. Even his best friend said what happened to him.
He does carry a HUGE chip on his shoulder from his ex wife. But ya know what I finally had this thought...I was not responsible for that chip being there. I sure the heck am not going to be punished for the rest of our married life for it.
Maybe he will see that he lost everything he had. But on the other hand maybe with his current frame of mind and selfish attitude he just won't care and thinks HE is justified to be ticked off.
