Green,

I know stupid to leave it there. But he really is a man that is hardly on this computer at all. He is not computer savy at all. But I was able to retrieve the e-mails back. I just went to his screen name.


JV....I do love him. But I am ready to be hapy again. To be fulfilled again. The way I feel is that if I do divorce I will never get maried again. For eight years it has been this way. When I get a slap in the face like what happened with the dating site it just eats at me and infuriates the heck out of me. In my opinion if that is what he wants he can go get it. Another thing to is, you can't begin to forgive someone who doesn't even offer a heart felt appology or even admit what they did was wrong. So to me there is nothing to build off from this situation.

As far as if I have thought it through and would be ready to follow through...I really have thought hard. I am ready to follow through with exactly what I told him. I am even ready for me to move out of the home with our children. Which before I felt he should move because it's only him. But like last week I asked him toi go and he wouldn't.

I was very angry sat. at him and let him know. After many words he said fine if what I did hurt your feelings I am sorry. It was only meant to get your goat and nothing was meant other than that. I told him again it was rude, heartless and direspectful. I also told him that I am tired of asking him to leave and he completely ignores it. I told him I am at a loss at what to do because nothing I say matters. I then told him I have never been one for ultimatums and have never issued an ultimatum. But I told him our anniversary is coming up in a couple weeks. I told him if he didn't seek medical help or therapy to find out what his problem was then I was out of here. I told him this had to happen by our anniversary. Or we wouldn't have another anniversary. I was going to leave. I asked him if he understood and he said yes. So now I will just wait and see. If he doesn't then I am prepared to follow through.