Well I tried, but... When H came to kiss me good-bye before he left for work this morning (I was still in bed)...he thanked me for the "present" I left in his pocket. He seemed quite pleased about it. I guess you'd have to be a guy to understand it. He laughed and called me a smart**s, but he left smiling and seemed to have an extra zing in his step. lol
Regarding the backslide I had yesterday. H sent me an e-mail mid morning to let me know his "group" was taking him out for lunch for a belated birthday celebration. His "group" of course includes "her"...there's 5 of them in total. I immediately got a rise of intense panic about the idea of him being seated close by to her for an intimate gathering. I replied back snippily saying I was sure he'd be in his glory. When he called me after lunch he made a point of telling me that the luncheon was a surprise presented to him by the group as a whole...to ensure I didn't think it was some private rendevous between the two of them. His tone was warm and careful so as not to cause me any upset. I could sense his concern hoping I wouldn't overreact about it. I took a deep breath and let it go...asking him what he had for lunch. This kept things calm and friendly even tho I was seething inside about her presence at the dinner table. I think it was his obvious concern about what my reaction might be that held me at bay. I still don't like the thought of it, but I'm glad I bit my tongue...and even more glad that he took care not to make an issue about it considering the snippy response I made to his e-mail about it. One small step at a time I suppose. It's over with, for now. God grant me the patience...
